My FeeLinGs #1

Recently i had been feeling rather depressed.
I was having my orientation for the past 3 days.
Well, i had fun, and was rather high.
But i was not as happy as i appear to be..
Reason being i feel that i couldn't make many friends,
i felt alone.
While others had their friends to walk and talk with,
i was alone.

Surprisingly,
my leader sms-ed me,
asking me to prepare something for the discussion meeting.
As usual,
she encouraged me to defeat my fear of speaking in front of
many ppl..
That was during my orientation.
Of course i would take up the role,
although i will feel stressed and nervous.
But i really want to play a part in the district.
At that time,
i was feeling rather depressed.
My leader then sent me long messages of encouragements,
telling me that i should not give up,
i should overcome it.
She told me that no matter what i face,
i should always go back to daimoku.

I haven't been chanting and doing my gongyo
during the orientation days
as i was DEAD TIRED.
When the orientation ended,
i went back to daimoku and gongyo.
And read the previous encouragements from
the Daily Guidance,
which i read everytime i do my gongyo,
i always feel charged when i do that.
I was surprised.
"Human relationship problems are opportunities
for you to grow and mature.
Such problems can be character building
if you don't let them defeat you."
No words can describe how i felt.
I was deeply touched.
Just two sentences.

I shouldn't envy those who
are naturally outspoken.
I should be glad,
that we are facing these problems.
Because i can gain something which
they cant.
One day when i succeed,
i will gain the sense of satisfaction
and achievement.
At that time,
i will be stronger than them,
i can proudly say that i won
over my own weaknesses.

I am fortunate,
to have great leaders,
who always bombard me with encouragements.
I am fortunate,
to have such a good sensei,
who wrote lots of encouragements,
for our happiness.
I am fortunate,
to have Faith and Gohozon.

I may not have received great benefits
like becoming rich or something.
But its the heart that matters.
This is where absolute happiness is.

Guidance #2
From: Daily Guidance
A stone wall that seems infinitely high
when seen from the ground,
appears no more than a slightly raised
boundary line when viewed from an airplane.
Similarly,
if your life-condition changes for the better,
so will the way you view and respond to things.
You'll find yourself surmounting every adversity
and hardship with composure,
and thoroughly enjoying the drama of life.
-Ikeda Sensei

My ThouGhts #1

From: Myself
In life, there are bound to be many problems.
The society may seem to be ugly,
at times,
the world may be in total darkness..
However,
this should not stop us from pursuing absolute happiness.
The darker the world appear to be,
the more we should shine brightly.
Let us all illuminate the world,
like the shining bright stars in the night sky.

Words from me:
I believe as long as we don't give up,
as long as we persevere,
one day we will succeed.
I am trying my best now,
climbing up the high mountain.
It may be tedious.
But i strongly believe that one day,
i will be able to reach the top,
and shout to the rest of the world:
"I did it!"
Its all thanks to the ppl who guide me,
to sensei,
and to Faith
that i have become more positive now.
=)

Guidance #1

From: Daily Guidance
When your determination changes,
everything else will begin to move in the direction you desire.
The moment you resolve to be victorious,
every nerve and fibre in your being will immediately orient itself
towards your success.
On the other hand,
if you think "this is never going to work out" ,
then, at that instant,
every cell in your being will be deflated and give up the fight,
and everything then really will move in the direction of failure.
-Ikeda Sensei

Opinion:
Whatever happens depend largely on us.
We may not be able to control the external factors around us,
but we can change them.
The mind makes a big difference.
It depends on how much you want to succeed,
your compassion in it.
Therefore, it is important that we be determined,
to never give up no matter how harsh the situation is.
For we will surely be the winners of the battle.

My First Step

My first step towards the route of faith
started off sometime before my O levels.
My mother bought 2 sets of praying beads and gongyo book.
One for me, the other for my elder sister.
Her initial intention was to allow my sister to start chanting
as she was facing some problems.
However, the strange thing was,
i started chanting, following her to the SSA HQ to chant.
I was not a fortune baby as you can see from above.
I chanted, and my faith was not strong at all.
Till now, I don't really know what made me decide to try.
At a time where i went to chant alone,
i met my current leader's mother,
who passed my number to my leader.
And this started off my real route towards faith.

I attended meetings, and learnt alot.
Besides that, i was overjoyed to get my O Levels results.
My prayers to get good results was answered!
I did better than i expected and aimed for,
and because of that,
i was able to enter my ideal course- TP Psychology Studies.
It enabled me to move another step closer to my dream.
Though i know, there're really many other obstacles ahead.

I had always been a VERY negative person.
All my thoughts were negative,
i wasn't happy in my life.
Whenever i think of my reason of joining SSA,
i would come up with the conclusion that
it was because i wanted to give my last shot
in finding happiness.
All these years,
i tried all sorts of ways to make myself happy
and others around me happy.
Time and time again i failed.
I really don't want to give up happiness.
For my mission and goal i set for myself in this life
needed it.

I am really fortunate to come across this Buddhism
which i strongly believe will bring absolute happiness to everyone.
Looking back,
i realised i have changed.
From a VERY negative person,
to someone who aims and moves on.
I admit my faith isn't that strong yet,
and i had more to do to reach that stage.
There're times whereby i fall,
feel lost and negative once again.
But i am always able to pick myself up.
I don't want to give up.
And all these are thanks to faith.
Thanks to my mother who planted the seed of faith in me.
Thanks to my leaders who guided me in the path of faith.
I am really grateful,
to Gohozon (object of devotion),
to those who led me to faith,
to my dearest Sensei.

I received another benefit
whereby my prayers are answered!
My mother who went to an operation recently,
went through a very successful operation.
And besides that,
she had a strong life force and courage
and did not fear the operation.
This is due to the daimoku my mother and i had been doing.
It may seem nothing, but to me
it meant alot.
And once again,
i am grateful to the Gohozon.